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Tuesday, October 26, 2010 { 12:34 AM }

created a new blog because i find that the more i disclose my blog add to others, the more i can't blog about my everyday life, especially when the people involved in my life are reading my blog.

today's macro class, total gone case. i'm freakin' out already. i know i need to start studying, but i just don't have the mood to, especially when exams are 7 months away, and there's playful kiss with Kim Hyun Joong! and Personal Taste with Lee Min Ho! and We Got Married with YongHwa and Seohyun to watch. Even if i didn't use my brains to think, it's obvious which one you'd rather do too right! ottokke yo?! aigoo...

so many happenings within the short time span of one and a half months. qj is outta my life, i came clean that all i could offer was friendship because i couldnt forget that incident in the past. it's stopping me from getting closer to him, physically. i'd just flinch when i go too near. i'm freaked out by what another friend said to me and am not gonna meet him anytime soon either.
i find myself distancing from guys these days. it's probably an involuntary action, probably just my body and my heart telling me to shield myself against any more hurt relationships can give?

and once again, my new eyecandy, is doing something related to water sports. urgh. whatever.

am just glad to have a few reliable true friends to depend on to make me smile more these days. (: am more or less over him. i'd rather drool over unrealistic stuffs like yonghwa and hyunjoong than think of realistic, not as cute, and stupid people who have only made me cry! (:

when will i ever find someone i'm comfortable with and have feelings for?

to be honest, i seriously doubt love will ever come knocking again. indulging in korean romance dramas too often only shows us the hard fact of reality. i've become so skeptical after 2 failed relationships, out of which, one which i put in my whole heart to love.

anyways, enough of negative thoughts.
i had my ddubokki crave satisfied today!
and i drank gong cha @ plaza singapura for the first time today. taro milk is not too bad, cause i'm a yam lover! but i find it a little bland, as in the milk taste. it feels kinda diluted imo. but then again, it could be due to the 50% sugar level i chose. koi's 50% is so damn sweet, but this one is..erm...their 100% is probably koi's 50%. lol.
yum yum yum. am a happy girl. but looking at the rate my tummy is growing, i'd better start doing something soon mans ):

painting nails tomorrow! what color should i paint? and ohhdear. i feel my fingers starting to feel a little painful again, is it gonna swell again??? ): but i have bowling training! boohoo. grr. rant rant.

i'm blessed to have friends who care, and parents who love me to bits, and siblings to pamper and squabble with. it makes my days so much easier & happier. (:

listening to: CN Blue-Love Light & SNSD-Tell me Your Wish (Genie)